Smile

The rain stops,
The sun shines,
The moon glows,
The stars glitter...
Every time there is a smile on your face.

xo,
Lenzee Dawn Snowphish

Semuanya kerana kamu

Aku ketawa
Aku menangis
Aku gembira
Aku bersedih
Aku menari
Aku menyanyi
Aku murung
Aku depresi
Aku ceria
Aku berduka...

Semuanya kerana kamu.

Aku marah, tidakku ingin melihat kelibatmu disisi

Aku damai, hanya bayangmu yang ku mahu dihadapanku.

Semuanya kerana kamu.

xoxo,
Lenzee Dawn Snowphish

my moon, my man

Oh, talking about life...i thought of listing out the criterias i want in a man. I'm not perfect to be wanting a lot of things, but everyone has one right? so why not put mine in writings.

1. romantic. ini...klu dpt, alhamdulillah...klu x...xpelaaaa...ahahahaha.

2. responsible. Ini wajib la kan ada pada setiap kaum adam dalam dunia ni.

3. religious. bukanlah nak cari ustaz ke apa..tapi yang boleh membimbing la...

4. kind. to me, to my family, to his family, to my friends, to his friends and to all the people around him.

5. funny. ini bonus weh. i want a man that can make me laugh over his silly jokes.

6. berharta. bukan kaya raya...tapi yang mampu la untuk menyara hidup berkeluarga.

7. klu nak yang muka iras2 cm cik abang kat bawah ni boleh tak? ahahahahaaha. over gila. ahahahahaha.

maaf ya tuan-tuan dan puan-puan...ini semua kesan dari kebosanan yang tahap gila punya.

goodnight...sudah mengantuk sekarang...bantal sudah memujuk, katil sudah memanggil...

s.h.a.t

suddenly me

i watched 500 days of summer, finally. itupun tak habis ditonton lagi. hehehe. so yeah. i find it interesting so far. I stopped at the scene where they had a fight after tom beat a guy up at a bar. So far, so good.

watching nigella feasts right now. i love her. i wish i can be a great cook! i mean, i can cook, tapi tak sehebat dia la. DUH! ahahahaaha. i love her show. she makes cooking so cool and easy. ahahaha. semua makanan yang dia masak pun nampak menarik je sentiasa. bestnyaaaaa. i need to learn how to cook. its not that hard. i've always wanted to learn how to cook malay traditional dishes. sekarang ni, tau sket2 je. italian and western are quite easy actually. makanan melayu ni...aduhh...dengan nak hiris bawang la segala bagai...nak tumis lagi....pedih, pedih. tapi kena belajar la kan? nnt kawen xreti masak, susah la. ahahahaahahahahahaha. mcmla nk kawen esok pun. ahahahaha. thanks to nigella, i dah start fikir macam2 sekarang ni..ahahaha..

Lets put my idea of a perfect life into words. ahaha. ttbe kan...lyn je la. ;p

i nak kawen umur 25...paling lambat, 27 la...insyaallah. If i get married at 27, can i start producing right away? ahahaha. klu kawen 25, boleh la honeymoon 2thn dulu ke...tp klu 27..hmm...nak anak terus oh. ahahaha. oh oh, i want 4 kids. 2 boys & 2 girls. yeayyy!!! :)

I want to be able to work on flexible hours, meaning i have to actually run my own business by the time i start producing my minis..so that i can prepare breakfast for the family, send my children to school...go to work...pick them up from school, prepare lunch for them, send them to tuition, go back to work, and be home at 5pm, cause i want to be able to greet my husband at the door when he comes home from work. :)

Then, i would like to buy a house where my kids can have one room to themselves, no sharing la..ini bila mereka semua sudah mencecah usia yang sepatutnya la...ahahahaaha. Not too big, not too small. Just a homey pad for a family of six.

Next, i would just like to enjoy life with my better half...spend the rest of our lives loving each other the same way when we first met...mcm dlm UP..sampai tua pn still in love gila punya....ahhh...it would be wonderful, if i can find a guy who would love me until his last breath. Cause i know, if i find a man that sweeps me off my feet, i will spend my whole life trying to love him more everyday.

ee...cakap cmni...over gila...padahal boyfriend pn tak ada lagi. ahahahahaha. bangang. alaa...berangan je...its not illegal to dream.. :))

over a year now.

uh oh...i can't believe that it has been over a year now...berjaya mengekalkan blog ni selama setahun. ho yeh! bagus2. tingkatkan usaha.

broken hearted girl

Ever had someone twist your very heart from its cavern with only a couple of words, or worse just with an interminable silence? Ever had someone move on with their life as yours was left to flounder? How long will it be before you can get through your daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach, without dwelling on what went wrong?

There is a way to laugh and love again. you just gotta be strong. :)

xoxo,

Lenzee Dawn Snowphish

what is beautiful?

is it beautiful when all you can see on a body are bones sticking out? does bingeing and purging make you beautiful?

fashion

is it so high fashion when you can fit into a size 00? that's quite ridiculous, but it is a painful fact to accept. In the fashion industry, they are scales on how much you can weigh and all. its absurd. don't you think?

girls are starving themselves to death everywhere, just to fit into a model size dress. Its sad to read the magazines sometimes, when there are articles on believing in yourself, confidence is the way to go...etc..etc, and on the following page, you would see an ad where the models have been air-brushed and edited in all kind of way, to be magazine quality size.

we only live once, it is such a waste to do something just to please other people. i mean, where is all the fun of enjoying life as it is when you have to constantly watch you eat, cause you can't be more than a size 2?

being skeleton looking is not beautiful. where will the beautiful part be, when u have to restrain urself from enjoying life as it is? it will make you look good, yes. but how long will it last? how far does it take you in life? you can be at the top of the world by being a size 00, but have you ever considered the side effects that comes along with it? serious health problems and all.

Okay okay...lets not blame it all to the fashion industry. its all around us.

The community

They are all around us. Our parents, friends...even the creepy guy down the street. They all play a part in this whole thing. I know how it feels when you walk down the street, minding your own business...when all of a sudden, a group of guys are teasing you about your weight. been there, done that. It hurts really bad. To make it worse, you go home and find your mother complaining about your weight. What a nice day huh?

Females need help learning to resist being influenced by images of perfect bodies in the media, the study suggests, and they need to learn to shrug off teasing from people, especially males.

Um, I've got another idea. How about all you jerky boys out there stop teasing girls about their weight? And all you moms, why don't you shut the heck up about your daughters' physiques?

That would be a step in the right direction, anyway.

Please girls, there are so much more important things than starving yourself just to be accepted or to fit into a size 00 dress. At the end of the day, loving yourself is the most important thing to do.

xoxo

Lenzee Dawn Snowphish

p/s: its not only happening to girls you know. boys do go through this hell too sometimes.